I wrote this a while ago (during sts-128) and I wasn’t planning on sharing it, but I decided I should and this is the right place to do it so…

I just had the weirdest feeling ever. I felt… empty. I was online, and i decided to go to nasa.gov and read about the current mission and the ones to come. I found an article called “The Final Countdown for Space Shuttles”, or something like that, it talks about the few missions we have left, and what was each of them doing and schedules.

Suddenly I felt really weird. I realized the only spaceship I know, the only one I’ve seen a launch of, is not gonna be around for much longer. I felt like everything I knew was going away. Don’t get me wrong, I know Soyuz will still go to space, and I’m truly excited about Constellation, but no Shuttle?

Well… I’ll have to enjoy these last missions, these last Shuttles, and every “last” in every mission. And then after Space Shuttle program is over I’ll enjoy robotic exploration,  the ISS, and all the new discoveries they bring us, and all the science we get from them. I’ll even enjoy all the milestones in the build of Ares, and the rest of Constellation. Then, hopefully, when it is ready to fly, I’ll enjoy its missions, and maybe even some to the moon, or Mars!

I’ll enjoy all of that, but the Space Shuttle will always have a special place in my heart (brain?) as the first spaceship I ever saw, the one I stayed up late, and woke up early for, the one I saw being launch, and the one that inspired me. I look forward to the future, but I’ll always miss the Space Shuttle.

It is short but really, really heartfelt…